I have hidden your word in my heart. . .

When I was growing up, I went to a Christian school for elementary school. Therefore I knew tons of Bible verses, we had to learn them every week. In high school I memorized them for youth group and missions trips. But it has been a long time since I have actively memorized scripture. This may seem like a small thing, but I don't think so. Yesterday, while listening to a very insightful lecture about language grammars, I began to write down verses that I could remember from the top of my head. I was amazed and saddened by how few I could remember both the verse and the reference or ones that I could remember verbatim.

I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you.
Psalm 119:11

Here is an interesting aside: the one passage that I have always remembered is Psalm 121. I can quote the entire thing to you, and have always been able to do that as long as I can remember. It was never something I was told to memorize and I don't remember my reasoning behind it. I wonder why this one. . . . Read On...

It's the first day of the rest of my life

This weekend was incredible in it's emotional highs and lows. I don't know if I have ever been able to be so upset with myself one day then so immensely happy the next with a few swings into intense nervousness. I have been blessed beyond measure. I have a fiance who loves me no matter what and wants me to be happy!

Today I will be told if I measure up. Today someone will tell me if I am good enough. I am scared to death and I know I will be upset if the deem me unfit, but I am a child of God. I am loved by my family, by my fiance. It doesn't matter what happens today. I have a lot of trouble trusting God with the rest of my life. Especially now, because I am supposed to be figuring out what I want to do.

You see, the problem is that I know what I want to do, I am just not sure where to do it. I want to serve God with all my heart. I want to live in the confidence and peace that he provides. I want to love Jeremy so that I help become the man God wants him to be. I want to grow old and grey with him. I want everyone I meet to know that there is something different about me. I want to leave and impression of Christ in everyone I meet.

Unfortunately, this does not translate into what job I am to take or even what profession I am to go into. Maybe it doesn't matter.

Read On...

Life moves quickly

This week is my last first week of classes, at least as an undergraduate. This year is going to hold a lot of changes, and already has, as young as this year is. It's weird, you know. I feel so very young and so very old at the same time. Sometimes I feel like life is passing me by.

today is an amazing day... but soon it will quickly pass and all we will be left with is tomorrow. when tomorrow comes, it will be today, and once again we will have the opportunity to make the most of it.

I have trouble living today for today. Read On...