Ultimate brings people together

Two of my very dear friends, Pat and Lindsay, just recently got engaged! I can claim partial responsibility in that I encouraged Lindsay to come out for ultimate where Pat was the captain. Lindsay and I have been good friends since my freshman year, and she is my sister! Pat and I have played ultimate together since my freshman year when he dubbed me 'Icebox.' Another story for another day.


Lindsay asked me to take some photos of her and Pat and her ring. So yesterday we wandered around Centennial Park as I forced them to open their eyes into the sun so I could get some good shots. With two exams coming up and being really busy at work, I don't have time to edit them quite yet, but I took a 'study break' last night for about 20 minutes so that I could share one of my favorite shots.

More to come soon!

P.S. If you missed the first ultimate link, you really need to check it out! Read On...

My Self Portrait

So the bad thing about having class from 4:30PM - 10PM is that the caffeinated drink that I undoubtedly consume during it to try to stay awake and focused during my classes kick in once I get home and want to go to sleep. So here is a random post with a few pictures.



Here is my attempt at a self portrait with my new camera! The one shot I like how I framed, but the other one has me more in focus.



What do you think?
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This is me being honest

I am a little frustrated. Don't read more unless you want the ugly details.

I am not ugly nor dumb. Yet I seem to becoming both. This more than a simply girly 'I am soo fat,' so please don't dismiss this as something so petty.

A few things have been on my mind and I am just going to spend a few minutes complaining.

Motivation: I am so not motivated to do anything right now. Why? I have no clue. It gets worse when Jeremy is away. I don't feel like doing homework, doing stuff at work, cleaning the house or anything. Even books fail to tempt me. I can't concentrate on anything. Even easy homework problems and simple tasks are becoming a chore. I need to get rid of the TV and internet in my life, but I hate being alone and so the tv is pretty much always on when Jeremy is away. I googled 'how to cure laziness.' All I could find was 'get off your butt.' Thanks, I know that. I am just having trouble doing it.

Skills: I am not really good at anything. I am a jack-of-all-trades-and-master-of-none. I enjoy photography, but so does everyone and their mother these days! I am not really good at anything: I am mediocre at ultimate, at cooking/baking, at photography, at writing, at math and physics, everything.

Sleep: I can't sleep. And yet I am tired all the time. I can't fall asleep or I am falling asleep in the middle of the day. I can't get up in the morning. I think that most of that has to do with laziness and then I fall back asleep and then I am just more tired because then I have to pull myself out of a restless sleep to wake up.

Weight: My lack of motivation for anything (see section 1) also means not being motivated to get any exercise. Thus I cannot lose weight. I have been trying to eat healthier, but I know that is not enough, plus the lack of motivation gets in the way of spending the time to prepare a tasty and healthy meal. So I am slightly chubby and not getting any better, in fact, more than likely I am getting worse. And that is not good, for specific health reasons.

Uselessness: I feel useless. I have a good job but am lost. I don't have a passion about what I do. I don't know what I would have a passion about. Between work and class, I don't have time to do what I want. But then, again, I don't know what I want. I want to be a good wife, but on top of class and homework and work, I am not keeping the apartment as well as I would like and I don't get to cook as much as I would like.

Faith: My faith is stagnant. I told you I was going to be honest. I don't know where God wants me, I don't feel God at all. I can't hear him, and yet I yearn to be pursued. I believe that a lot of my feelings of uselessness and lack of purpose stem from my stagnant faith. Serving God is my purpose, but I am a low point on my sine curve. Speaking of sine curves I also can't shake the guilt that I have let down more than one of my friends.

Friends and Loneliness: I am lonely. I have the most awesome husband in the world, but this week he is away. Jeremy can't be with me all the time. I feel disconnected from all my friends, or those who used to be my friends. I feel like I have let a lot of them down. I feel like a lot of them have let me down. Now that I am out of school, friendships take effort. I have had several people subtly or not-so-subtly have inferred that its because I have gotten married. I do agree that marriage takes work and is definitely my priority right now, so if that is really a problem, then I guess everyone just has to learn that Jeremy is my number one. That aside, I miss my friends! I know that I am not the best at correspondence, so is it completely my fault? What about everyone on the other end? This past year+, my life has completely changed and so I have lost touch with pretty much everyone. There have been two specifically who have made a huge effort, and I love them for it!

So in short: I weigh more than I should, I don't know who I am or where I want to go, I am lazy and thus getting dumber and I am lonely.

I could use some help, but I don't know where to ask. I need to do something but I don't know what or where to start.

Yup, that is me spewing my complaints into the vast darkness of cyberspace. Now why am I posting this? One, I have no one else to talk to right now. Two, I kinda half hope that someone will read this and understand. The problem is that I 'know' all the answers, all the platitudes, every response that someone may give me. I can give myself a pep talk that could rival the best pep talk you've ever heard.

So now what?
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Let Today be the Day

Today I got to be the matron of honor in Whit and Rowan's wedding. Whit is Jeremy's brother.



Both Jeremy and I gave some advice and a little toast to the bride and groom and I thought that it would be nice to share the advice with every one.


Jeremy's was more personal, drawn very much from our first year of marriage, and directed mainly to Whit. His toast meant a lot to me because I know that this is stuff that he has learned from our marriage:

Hi everyone, I am Jeremy, Whit's brother and I'd like to give him some advice. Whit, I want to congratulate you on your marriage and give you some really sappy but good advice that I have learned in my really long one year of marriage.
1.) Whenever you have an argument, always remember that you love her, and she loves you, no matter what. And don't think that you won't have arguments, because you will.
2.)Every once in a while do something for Rowan that is special but simple for absolutely no reason. Cheap flowers from the grocery store work really well. But don't do that stuff too often, or she may come to expect it!
3.) Now many of you know that Whit has an old VW beetle, but I also have one. Whit, Rowan is more important that your car. It's true. Really. Spending time with her should always come first. As much as you want to work on your car, Rowan is your first priority, and always should be. I am praying for both of you and hope you have a wonderful life together. Congratulations.

Mine was a little more sappy, but hopefully better than the generic wedding toasts that you can find on the internet. I wrote this one all by myself:

Hi everyone, I am Beverly and for those of you who don't know me, I am married to the groom's brother. Whit and Rowan, I have this picture of you guys on my wall, Whit has his arms around you and you are laughing, probably because he is tickling you. I love that picture because it reminds me of how happy you two are together. Rowan, Whit, being married is awesome! You get to wake up next to your best friend every day and know that no matter what, he or she will always love you. It's really cool! Marriage takes work, though; sacrifices, putting the other a head of yourself. There will be hard times, just never forget how much you love each other. You'll get through it, and probably come out a little closer. I know I have.

So here are a few things to remember:
Always remember to greet each other with a kiss every morning, to encourage one another in all you do, to cuddle close when watching movies or in front of the fireplace.
Remember that smiles say a lot.
Remember to listen to what each other says and also what they mean, because it is not always the same thing.
Remember to share the spoon when you lick the brownie batter, to hold hands and use hugs liberally.
Remember to work through your anger or frustration as soon as possible and remember that sweet nothings really are something.
Laugh a lot and enjoy one another. You know you've found your love when you've found the one who makes you a better person.

Jeremy said to me a few days after we were married, 'I hope that in twenty years we look back and say, 'Man, and we weren't even that much in love back then.'' So this is my prayer for you two, that today is the day that you love each other the least. Ladies and gentlemen, to Whit and Rowan!


Whit and Rowan, We love you and are so happy to call you family! It was a beautiful wedding.
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